I Whirlwind of Tears and Joy

I am very joyful because I adopted two kittens this week who I love dearly. However, my heart is so heavy tonight as I've had to deal with pain, frustration, hatred, stress....Need I say more?

I have been so stressed out about work lately and actually had to take a personal day off today. I was given the joy of having kittens two nights ago and suddenly it feels like my joy has been snatched away due to recent events in my life.

I don't understand why some people are so selfish, so shallow minded, so thoughtless! Why do they think it's okay to trample all over me? Not only once...twice...three times... It has crushed my heart. It has hurt me so much. I hope that he knows that. If he hasn't already figured that out, he'll know soon enough. I will have nothing to do with him ever again.

And then to make matters even more crazy...I've been thinking a lot about my future, realizing the path I've been on with certain aspects of life aren't going to work anymore. I want them to work out very much so but I can't see past certain things that are standing in my way...

I love my kitties! DEARLY!

Pastor Robert's message tonight was excellent. I am hoping and praying that this salvation message will be heard in certain people's lives this weekend...How I desire to see hope and joy in my dear friends' life!!!

I need to try to rest now. I don't know if I'll be able to. Then again, I've cried so much I might pass out from sheer exhaustion....